So how many people have I met here (in Hollywood) that lay claim to being something, someone.

We are all someone important - to our friends, families, loved ones right. But I don't understand flossing bogusly.

The other night I was at a Red Carpet event with the Mochacity Team. There to interview a handful of 'real celebs' and make it do what it do for the site. A couple of hours in, and I had apparently met 4 bigtime producers, 3 up and coming rappers, a couple of CEO's, 7 'known' models and a dozen extras/actors. Oh and not via the Red Carpet either, but by the bar, in the restrooms, in the non VIP floor area - domestic ground that even my moms could get on. All of the ones I'm talking about, weren't really anybody of merit or success in their chosen industry, pretty much joe schmoe who worked at Starbucks or Rite Aid in an evening whilst 'persuing' their 'hobby'.

Now I'm in no way knocking ambition, we all start somewhere to get somewhere, I love me some ambition, its the basis of fibre and drive, which is so important in this world. But we all know what we do, we all know our level or potential of success based against the arena we are entering into. And if your really handling and on the road to somewhere, you get the respect due from me.

In a majority of the examples I've seen though, which unfortunately have been many, its been pulling out a bunch of BS because their faking it til they *don't* make it.

Examples being, the man who just got paid that night so he can pull out his 'grip' for flash, which will have him without electricity for the rest of the month (the CEO) - the chick with a cute face, good lighting and a grade digi cam, who knows a man, who knows a man who can photoshop that ass (in the case of a model) - the thug with a MySpace music profile who happened to pen something that kinda rhymed, with the words hoe, bitch, dough or pimp in it (rapper) - the person who was actually an extra once or twice, may have scored an Open Access Channel commercial or even better a five min home video on YouTube (actor/actress) .. and these unfortunately aren't gross generalizations.

Does that make whats in your head THE REALITY? and do you know that people aren't eating up what your feeding them? or are people eating it up which makes them 1) hella stupid and 2) just bathing in the fictitious shine they think they see for the short amount of time they see it? LOL I'm really not sure.

Now I don't want folk getting heated for me airing my views, it's my Blog dammit, like I said if your about something, 'inspired' even, you get that kudo's. If your not though, and have your fiction on lock, I won't be reading about you in the next 5 years so don't get mad at me for keeping it real.

I figure if your lying to people, your lying to yourself. And if your lying to yourself, then your not pulling out the stops necessary to actually make it happen, because your too busy off of the fake fame to find the stamina needed to gain the real fame. I guess the only thing to do is to try and continue to get it, I know esteem is important, I have it, you have it, we all have it and strive to make our thing, whatever it is, work, but I guess I'm struggling to understand why these people need to push so hard publicly to get recognition for something that isn't really them.

I mean is a fake forum to strangers that important to establish your character?. Wouldn't it just be easier to admit to the chick you met in the club, '' Look I'm trying but honestly I work at Banana Republic 30 hours a week'' .. or ''I want to handle this but on the real I only spend two hours or hell no hours on this music, being self employed or going for auditions that dont amount to upping my cheese'' .. that deserves limited respect right?, till they know YOU, it doesn't have to run that honesty in the life/career/industry meld be at an all time low.

Anyway, people got me mulling, I dont take much on the surface as gospel, maybe it irks me that I've seen people fire out some badly strung lines and observed people absorb it. Best thing to do in the circumstance, is take that humble works for me but I appreciate it doesn't work for everyone. I'm just imagining a world where we aren't f*****g up the game, if everyone started being about their true self, all the time, maybe as males and females we would be getting more respect in our fields and making a difference by having genuine and more effective business connections.